Today I’m thankful that I work well under pressure.

11.4.2021

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It’s actually both a blessing and a curse. I have always done very well under pressure. One might say I’m a procrastinator. I’d say it’s more that my creative genius is best expressed with a wee bit of pressure. But because I do well like this, I don’t seem to find the motivation to break out of this pattern. See what I mean ... both a blessing and a curse.

I’m giving a talk at a retreat in a couple of weeks. I’ve been preparing for this for several weeks now … reading, thinking, journaling, praying, jotting notes. But my deadline for having this talk ready is tomorrow night (actually tonight, now that I see it’s after midnight). I want to be that person that had it written and neatly put in a binder a week ago, but I’m just not that girl. I never have been. So here I am, finishing it up the night before. Honestly, last minute is when I do my best work.

Because this is my M.O., I love deadlines. They give me the sense of urgency I need. Ugh, why am I like this?

Tonight I’m thankful that my creative juices came through and flowed right on cue like they always do. I’m thankful that my talk is printing while I type this post. And I’m thankful to be heading to bed with a sense of accomplishment and several good hours of sleep ahead of me.